Shapeshifter- In Colour

Exam Time Part 1

Like the picture says I should be studying for my exams, but with study comes procrastination. During my great procrastination moment I thought "I'm putting all this time and effort in to a two hour or three hour exam, why?"

There is so much pressure to do well in exams when in the real work environment they don't tell you to sit down for three hours and write three essays in order to keep your job, or do they? did I skip that class where they told us this actually happens?

So much of my life right now is dedicated to study and I hope like hell it will all be worth it at the end of the day, otherwise I'll just end up working at Burger King for the rest of my damn life on minimum wage...NOT COOL!!

So to everyone out there going through exams or who will eventually do exams GOOD LUCK and remember if you study hard then it will be worth it in the end, and when you reach that end you will forever have your student loan to remind you of those long nights studying and pointless lectures you once attended.

Sean Mackey- New Zealand Sprawl

Love this song, it's my new chill out and relax song.

I wish the couple on the corner would just get a room,
Seems like everyone around me is on their honey moon,
I'd love to take a pin to a heart shaped balloon,
Everybody's got somebody but me.

- Hunter Hayes, Everybody's Got Somebody But Me

The SOL - Hey Little Girl

My new favourite video and song, I love it!!

A Depressing Thought

My mum and I are very close, I share everything with her and she is my rock. On our weekly talks she told me that she went to the doctors, the outcome was that she is mildly depressed. So now my mother and I share another thing in common.

The thought that my mother is depressed deeply troubles me, I know she is stressed from her job but I have never seen her as depressed. When I told her now we have something else in common I don't think she realised how sad I really am.

This troubles me as I have always been very close to my mum, and if we can't see this in each other makes me realise how serious this all is. I wish I was with my mum right now so we could just talk about everything.

My mum must have told my sister, as she posted the picture above on my Facebook page.

I hope my mother starts to change some of her lifestyle habits so she will be happy and healthy again, because my mum is my rock without her I don't know where I would be right now.

I don't know how to handle the fact that my mum is now mildly depressed.

10 Things You Don't Know About Me

 

1.  I am a gaming geek at heart - I love gaming, if I could I would seriously play a game non-stop for a day if I didn't have to sleep and eat. They are addictive and so much fun compared to my boring relality.
2. I am a magazine horder - Only my close friends know this when they come into my room and see my stack of magazines that I have. They are always like "Why so many?" and all I say is "Why not?". I remember my mum telling me to get rid of them when I was younger and that's when it dawned on me if I love them so much why not work for one, and hopefully I will achieve that dream.
3. I have no social life - My social life now consists of me talking to my flat mates (while watching TV) and talking to my work mates and uni friends. That is all. I never go out and explore anymore because of my busy schedule, which makes me question when did I become such a nana?
4. I am a chocoholic - Yes I said it, I have such bad cravings for it when trying to stick to my 80% healthy 20% indulgent. I swear chocolate breaks me everytime!
5. I am really bad at keeping in touch with friends - Since moving up to Auckland I feel like I have neglected all of my amazing friends in the South Island, and I hate myself for it so it's time to change.
6. I am really bad at saving - I use to be the queen of saving when I was younger, WHAT HAPPENED!
7. I love star gazing - If I was smart enough I would have been an astronaut. I love anything and everything to do with stars, constellations, planets, in general just the whole solar system.
8. I am not a very confidant person - I doubt myself all the time and always think the worse. 
9. I love running - When I first started my healthy spree I never would have thought that I would enjoy it, and now I love running! If I don't run at least 3 times a week I don't feel like myself, I feel miserable. Thanks to me loving this it has made me loose over 6kgs.
10. I have never been in love.

Autumn casual look 2013

Autumn casual look 2013 by libbyr5 featuring volcom

Reiss
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Tulle Clothing dog jacket
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Topshop denim skinny jeans
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Asos boots
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Volcom
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Soul Mates- The Host Soundtrack

This is a beautiful song and I can not stop listening to it, the whole soundtrack to The Host contains beautiful music and is worth listening to as I feel that it really gets into my soul as music and just makes me stop and listen. I really enjoyed the movie as well, I just wished that they didn't make all of Stephenie Meyers books into movies but I can;t stop them. I also wish the second book would hurry up and come out! I have been waiting years for it. (A huge sci-fi fan I am, and this book was so much better than the Twilight series.)

Soul Mates
Antonio Pinto
The Host Soundtrack

Bad Day

 

Today has not been a good day to say the least and right now all I want to do is sleep but I have an essay to write, so I am surviving on tea to help keep me going through the night right now (I was tempted to buy an energy drink, but I don't like the idea of putting that into my system!) 

I thought every thing was on track until I couldn't get hold of one of my sources for another assignment that is due tomorrow! and now I have to talk to her tomorrow, frantically write up my story and then hand it in. I half blame myself for this because I should have contacted her on Monday but I didn't, but ringing her for four hours when we planned a time to talk and her not picking up is not helpful either. 

And then to make matters worse I have an assignment due on Monday which I do not have a clue what I am doing for it.

I can not wait until the holidays!

Pink Bible

So it's that time of the year again when Uni work comes crashing down on me like a brick wall and all I can think is when am I ever going to break free, it feels like never.

This year is one of the most crucial years as it will determine what major I get into for my third and final year, and all I can think about is what if I don't get into any major, what then? I would have wasted two years of my life (not even going to mention my student loan) all for nothing. You would think that I would be working harder with all this burden dragging me further under the brick wall, but I feel like I'm not, I'm stuck in the same habits for study as what I have always had, WHERE IS THE MOTIVATION!

That led me to this:

I can always rely on Treasure Yourself by Miranda Kerr to get me through the tough days. This positive affirmation has made me stop and think that I choose how successful I want to be in life and one thing I want to be successful in is my future career, and that starts with working hard at university.

So tomorrow I am cracking into my essay and giving it everything I have to get a top mark to show to myself that if I put my mind to it and put all my effort into it hopefully my efforts will be rewarded one day.

Casual Outfit #1

Casual Outfit #1 by libbyr5 featuring satchel handbags

Zara striped top
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Jane Norman super skinny jeans
$45 - houseoffraser.co.uk

Saks Fifth Avenue ballerina shoes
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Warehouse satchel handbag
$54 - warehouse.co.uk

Sunglasses
herpanache.com

I Love Who?

Nights like tonight is when I hate my bed, it's too big for one person. I may not know what it is like to have a strong embrace around me, but that doesn't mean I don't crave it. Cause I do, nearly every night.

It's always the same question: "So anyone your interested in?" or "Have you meet anyone recently?" and it's always the same answer, "No." Followed by a lie: "I like being single, it's fun. Plus I don't have time for a relationship." Followed by a fake smile to get everyone off my back.

People don't see it, they don't see that I hate being single, that I hate that fact that I have never told someone I love them because deep inside it kills me.

I feel like it will never happen to me, and why is that? why don't I get to experience this feeling? I feel like something is wrong with me that I will forever be repeating the statement above. What will happen to me?

People tell me don't go looking for it, it will happen when you least expect it. Well I am still waiting.

I am 21 years old and I have never fallen in love, never been held in an embrace overnight, never been told that I am beautiful by that someone special and I have never whispered the words

"I Love You"

A Sisters Birthday

So today it is my older sisters birthday, and unfortunately I am not with her to celebrate her birthday like she was for mine although I will be seeing her in two days time when I visit home for Easter.

So since I am not with her today I thought I would give her a dedication on my page.

My sister and I have a very strong bond after all we have been through together and I can imagine it will only get stronger as the years go on. Some days she drives me crazy and other days she is the only one who understands what I am going through, and through it all I know she will always be there for me and I for her that's the great thing about a sisters bond it's unbreakable.

So Happy 23rd Birthday to my amazing, smart and beautiful sister I can't wait to see you in two days time.

My summer in a nutshell

This post has been a long time coming now, but with unforeseen circumstances it meant the delay in this post. However I am here to give you a list of my highs and lows for summer, as summer is now officially over in the southern hemisphere and autumn is slowly making itself known here in Auckland.
So here we go:

The Highs

• Having four months off Uni to enjoy the summer months was spectacular and possibly a very rare occurrence so I tried to soak up as much of it as I could.
• I turned 21 this summer!
• My birthday wish came true, that was for my family to spend my birthday in Auckland with me and half of my family surprised me by coming up which was AMAZING!
• Moving house and meeting my amazing new flat mates who are from all over the world, so I now have even more connections for when I travel.
• I read an inspirational book that has changed my life.
• I have become a more healthier person and do regular exercise which has resulted in me losing weight.
• It was my first summer away from home and I managed to support myself (with some help from my mother now and then) by working hard, and I feel I am a more independent person because of it.
• I only got sun burnt twice which is a new record.
• Going home for Christmas was a major high point as I miss them dearly.
• Getting to know all the locals who come into work was an unexpected bonus.
• My childhood friend came up to see me for a weekend, it was a great weekend.

The Lows

• Working for a majority of the summer meant I didn't get out as much as I would have liked.
• Spending New Years alone was a buzz kill night, and having to work the next morning made me feel even more lonely.
• Moving out of my old apartment was sad as I loved the place and I miss my old flat mate at times.
• Catching the worst flu right at the end of summer was not fun! (that is why this is being posted late)
• Getting sun burnt is never fun!
• Realising that I do not own a bikini because I am unsure about my body.
• Did not save as much money as I was hoping to. 

For my first summer in Auckland I would say it was a pretty successful one. Of course like anything there are low points but I'm becoming a more positive person and focusing on the positives in life and embracing what surrounds me.
I have to say that I am grateful for the amazing summer I had, but I am looking forward to some cooler months that are ahead as well.
So goodbye summer and hello autumn!