Currently on my mind: The end of the year

The realization that this is my last year at university is finally hitting me and I feel a little lost even though I still have around 5 months to go.

After studying for 5 years since leaving high school I realise how easy it was to go from learning to more learning but now I have to start actively seeking out a full time job for the end of the year.

No I'm not currently looking for a job but I have just updated my LinkedIn account and my CV, you can never be too prepared right?

I think what worries me the most is the fact that I have never really had a lot of luck when it comes to the job searching department. It always takes me months to find a job and I take the jobs because by that point I am desperate and don't really have the choice to refuse. I really don't want this to happen towards the end of the year.

What makes me optimistic is that ultimately I can get a job any where in the world as I don't have anyone holding me back from looking overseas which I feel is a big bonus. At the end of the year I can pack my bag and just go to the other side of the world if that is where I get a job, which I am secretly hoping for anyway.

Let's hope that when November rolls around that I have a job all lined up for me, until then I will start my exam study timetable.

Tips on how to use Tinder

 

Recently I jumped on the bandwagon of an app called Tinder to see what all the fuss was about and this is what I came up with:

1.  Don't show pictures with you and a person from the opposite sex: the person looking at your page will automatically think you are dating and will class you as a douche bag and will automatically dislike you.

2.  Do not take the app seriously: personally I used it for pure entertainment and to see the amazing pick up lines people use.

3.  Finding out who is in your area: I can't decide if this is a good thing or a bad thing.

4.  Like EVERYONE: you can easily delete the app later.

5.  Learning new pick up lines: you never know when you might need those bad boys and some people have great creativity when it comes to some of these.

6.  NEVER let your flatmates take control of your device: the stuff they say and the people they like may stalk you for a while.

7.  Why go out when you can tinder: The amount of pulling (in the words of Geordie Shore) that you can do with this app is crazy, you don't even need to leave your couch.

8.  Don't swipe the wrong way: make sure you know that left is dislike and right is like.

9.  A great way to creep people out: you know those moments when you want to, now its just an easy conversation away. Like chat roulette but has more class.

10.  Download it: even if its just for half an hour of your life everyone needs to experience this pure source of entertainment.

I Love Who?

Nights like tonight is when I hate my bed, it's too big for one person. I may not know what it is like to have a strong embrace around me, but that doesn't mean I don't crave it. Cause I do, nearly every night.

It's always the same question: "So anyone your interested in?" or "Have you meet anyone recently?" and it's always the same answer, "No." Followed by a lie: "I like being single, it's fun. Plus I don't have time for a relationship." Followed by a fake smile to get everyone off my back.

People don't see it, they don't see that I hate being single, that I hate that fact that I have never told someone I love them because deep inside it kills me.

I feel like it will never happen to me, and why is that? why don't I get to experience this feeling? I feel like something is wrong with me that I will forever be repeating the statement above. What will happen to me?

People tell me don't go looking for it, it will happen when you least expect it. Well I am still waiting.

I am 21 years old and I have never fallen in love, never been held in an embrace overnight, never been told that I am beautiful by that someone special and I have never whispered the words

"I Love You"