Summer Wrap Up

So summer has once again come and gone in the Southern Hemisphere, so here is my high and low points of summer for 2013/14:

High points

1. I had another four months off from university, which was a much needed break after a very stressful year.
2. I got to spend the entire summer down in the South Island with my family and friends, it was wonderful.
3. All my hard work paid off and I got into the major I wanted. PR here I come!
4. During summer I worked the entire time and managed to save up a bit of money which will come in handy after uni.
5. I finally got my retainer off! No more braces or wires or dentist visits, success!
6. My sister and her boyfriend of six years got engaged! So excited.
7. I got to spend a lot of time with my friends at home, which was great! I miss them already.
8. Went speed dating, which turned out to be a lot of fun, despite the nerves before the event.
9. Meeting new people who I worked with, truly fantastic people that I can call friends.
10. I got to explore so much of the countryside in the South Island. Yes I've seen some of it before, but having a new camera made it so much more exciting.

Low points

1.  I had to move out from a wonderful flat. It was such a great place to live and all the flatmates I had there were amazing!
2. I craved sushi so much when I was home. Nothing compares to some of the sushi in Auckland.
3. I didn't save as much money over the summer as I would have liked to.
4. It was so hard to find a new place in Auckland! What made it worse is when no-one replied to emails, texts or calls. SERIOUSLY! did you want/need a flatmate? Oh wait you won't answer that questions since you don't respond.
5. Spending nearly four months in my hometown. To long, far too long.
6. I still have my job at BK. Need a new job ASAP!
7. I haven't been running as much over summer as I would have liked to. Time to change that.
8. One of my closest friends left the country and deserted us all for Germany. Miss her face!

So as you can see a pretty positive summer. I really loved being home for the summer because after this last year of study who knows where I will be at the end of the year. So getting to spend so much time with my family and friends really was a great way to spend my summer and in a way to say good bye to a town that helped made me the person I am now.

So goodbye sunshine, heat, relaxing and my tanned skin and hello falling leaves, new colours and crisp mornings.

I Couldn't Work in a Circus

My life has become a constant juggling act, one second I know what I want to do with my life and the next I get this other idea in my head on where my future lies. One second I'm up and the next I'm back down. This whole juggling act just makes me feel exhausted because I just keep dropping the balls.

I sometimes wish I had those parents who raise their children telling them exactly what they will do in life, and the child just nods and agrees. They have it easy! They don't have to map out their lives and don't have to worry about the constant question that every child has of "What do I want to be when I'm older?" I am now older! and I still have no bloody clue. These lucky people can just focus on what they have been told and just get on and do it, while here I am contemplating life and what I should do with it when I could be either studying, eating or just having a damn life.

But I would have probably rebelled and then run away from home and become that weird homeless person who roams the streets if I had parents like that. I am way too head strong and have far too many opinions.

I can not wait until my last year of university next year because then i can focus on my major and my minor and that's it! I won't have to worry about whether I will get in or not, cause once I'm in that's it. Whatever major option I get into next year will be the deciding factor for the rest of my life.

Pft who am I kidding I will probably change my mind at least a dozen more times before I actually graduate.

Daddy Issues

It's the awkward time in the year again when we celebrate half of the reason why we even exist today, Father's Day.

Yes it's awkward for me because you could say I do not have the greatest relationship with my father. It will be the brief text saying "happy fathers day, hope you have a good day x" and the reply will be "thanks".

I understand that we should appreciate our parents, but it is hard to do so when one parent just does not know anything about you, it's difficult.

It was not always like this, I use to be Daddy's little girl. There are pictures of me sitting on his lap all smiling and happy or building a sandcastle together. I look at these and wonder how did we ever drift so far apart.

So now my little rant is over I will get back to drinking my wine and I will appreciate all the amazing people I have in my life. 

A Depressing Thought

My mum and I are very close, I share everything with her and she is my rock. On our weekly talks she told me that she went to the doctors, the outcome was that she is mildly depressed. So now my mother and I share another thing in common.

The thought that my mother is depressed deeply troubles me, I know she is stressed from her job but I have never seen her as depressed. When I told her now we have something else in common I don't think she realised how sad I really am.

This troubles me as I have always been very close to my mum, and if we can't see this in each other makes me realise how serious this all is. I wish I was with my mum right now so we could just talk about everything.

My mum must have told my sister, as she posted the picture above on my Facebook page.

I hope my mother starts to change some of her lifestyle habits so she will be happy and healthy again, because my mum is my rock without her I don't know where I would be right now.

I don't know how to handle the fact that my mum is now mildly depressed.

10 Things You Don't Know About Me

 

1.  I am a gaming geek at heart - I love gaming, if I could I would seriously play a game non-stop for a day if I didn't have to sleep and eat. They are addictive and so much fun compared to my boring relality.
2. I am a magazine horder - Only my close friends know this when they come into my room and see my stack of magazines that I have. They are always like "Why so many?" and all I say is "Why not?". I remember my mum telling me to get rid of them when I was younger and that's when it dawned on me if I love them so much why not work for one, and hopefully I will achieve that dream.
3. I have no social life - My social life now consists of me talking to my flat mates (while watching TV) and talking to my work mates and uni friends. That is all. I never go out and explore anymore because of my busy schedule, which makes me question when did I become such a nana?
4. I am a chocoholic - Yes I said it, I have such bad cravings for it when trying to stick to my 80% healthy 20% indulgent. I swear chocolate breaks me everytime!
5. I am really bad at keeping in touch with friends - Since moving up to Auckland I feel like I have neglected all of my amazing friends in the South Island, and I hate myself for it so it's time to change.
6. I am really bad at saving - I use to be the queen of saving when I was younger, WHAT HAPPENED!
7. I love star gazing - If I was smart enough I would have been an astronaut. I love anything and everything to do with stars, constellations, planets, in general just the whole solar system.
8. I am not a very confidant person - I doubt myself all the time and always think the worse. 
9. I love running - When I first started my healthy spree I never would have thought that I would enjoy it, and now I love running! If I don't run at least 3 times a week I don't feel like myself, I feel miserable. Thanks to me loving this it has made me loose over 6kgs.
10. I have never been in love.