My life has become a constant juggling act, one second I know what I want to do with my life and the next I get this other idea in my head on where my future lies. One second I'm up and the next I'm back down. This whole juggling act just makes me feel exhausted because I just keep dropping the balls.
I sometimes wish I had those parents who raise their children telling them exactly what they will do in life, and the child just nods and agrees. They have it easy! They don't have to map out their lives and don't have to worry about the constant question that every child has of "What do I want to be when I'm older?" I am now older! and I still have no bloody clue. These lucky people can just focus on what they have been told and just get on and do it, while here I am contemplating life and what I should do with it when I could be either studying, eating or just having a damn life.
But I would have probably rebelled and then run away from home and become that weird homeless person who roams the streets if I had parents like that. I am way too head strong and have far too many opinions.
I can not wait until my last year of university next year because then i can focus on my major and my minor and that's it! I won't have to worry about whether I will get in or not, cause once I'm in that's it. Whatever major option I get into next year will be the deciding factor for the rest of my life.
Pft who am I kidding I will probably change my mind at least a dozen more times before I actually graduate.
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