Daddy Issues

It's the awkward time in the year again when we celebrate half of the reason why we even exist today, Father's Day.

Yes it's awkward for me because you could say I do not have the greatest relationship with my father. It will be the brief text saying "happy fathers day, hope you have a good day x" and the reply will be "thanks".

I understand that we should appreciate our parents, but it is hard to do so when one parent just does not know anything about you, it's difficult.

It was not always like this, I use to be Daddy's little girl. There are pictures of me sitting on his lap all smiling and happy or building a sandcastle together. I look at these and wonder how did we ever drift so far apart.

So now my little rant is over I will get back to drinking my wine and I will appreciate all the amazing people I have in my life. 

The Kite String Tangle - Given The Chance

Jamie Campbell Bower - Waiting (Original) - Ont' Sofa Gibson Sessions

Spring Casual - Ripped Boyfriend Jeans

Spring Casual - Ripped Boyfriend Jeans by libbyr5 featuring blue jeans

Over sized shirt
alloyapparel.com

Blue jeans
$39 - newlook.com

Classified flat shoes
myhotshoes.com

Alfani bangle bracelet
macys.com

Blasting in my earphones 2

Spring is Coming

Spring is Coming by libbyr5 featuring silver jewelry

Issue 1 3 cotton sweater
$62 - nelly.com

Jane norman
$43 - janenorman.co.uk

CHIPIE laced up shoes
$46 - harveynichols.com

Silver jewelry
$40 - thegrandsocial.com.au

Accessorize sterling silver jewellery
accessorize.com

Silver jewelry
brandymelvilleusa.com

My future looks like a magazine

My ever growing magazine collection.

It has come to that time again when I have to choose what major I want to pursue in my last year of university next year, and I am even more confused and conflicted about what I want to do.

I moved up to Auckland with one goal in my mind: to get into the journalism major. But things changed, as they do quite often with me.

The first half of this year was rough on me, I wasn't in the right frame of mind and I became somewhat depressed as I felt that I was not good at university altogether. I went home for two weeks and got away from the city which gave me time to sit, chill and think.

So far this semester has been great and I have begun to remember why I made the move up to Auckland, I want to work for a fashion magazine.

I love fashion, I might not have the money to buy the clothes I want but that doesn't stop me from opening Vogue Australia or Remix and appreciating every single piece of clothing and imaging what I could wear or what would suit me.

So now that it has come to the time to pick majors I know I want to do journalism. But first I have to get the good grades so I can be accepted into journalism next year.

The best I can do is take one step at a time and stay true to what I believe I am capable of and that is that I will one day work for a fashion magazine.

Mt Cook Photo Diary

Shapeshifter- In Colour

Exam Time Part 1

Like the picture says I should be studying for my exams, but with study comes procrastination. During my great procrastination moment I thought "I'm putting all this time and effort in to a two hour or three hour exam, why?"

There is so much pressure to do well in exams when in the real work environment they don't tell you to sit down for three hours and write three essays in order to keep your job, or do they? did I skip that class where they told us this actually happens?

So much of my life right now is dedicated to study and I hope like hell it will all be worth it at the end of the day, otherwise I'll just end up working at Burger King for the rest of my damn life on minimum wage...NOT COOL!!

So to everyone out there going through exams or who will eventually do exams GOOD LUCK and remember if you study hard then it will be worth it in the end, and when you reach that end you will forever have your student loan to remind you of those long nights studying and pointless lectures you once attended.

Sean Mackey- New Zealand Sprawl

Love this song, it's my new chill out and relax song.

I wish the couple on the corner would just get a room,
Seems like everyone around me is on their honey moon,
I'd love to take a pin to a heart shaped balloon,
Everybody's got somebody but me.

- Hunter Hayes, Everybody's Got Somebody But Me

The SOL - Hey Little Girl

My new favourite video and song, I love it!!

A Depressing Thought

My mum and I are very close, I share everything with her and she is my rock. On our weekly talks she told me that she went to the doctors, the outcome was that she is mildly depressed. So now my mother and I share another thing in common.

The thought that my mother is depressed deeply troubles me, I know she is stressed from her job but I have never seen her as depressed. When I told her now we have something else in common I don't think she realised how sad I really am.

This troubles me as I have always been very close to my mum, and if we can't see this in each other makes me realise how serious this all is. I wish I was with my mum right now so we could just talk about everything.

My mum must have told my sister, as she posted the picture above on my Facebook page.

I hope my mother starts to change some of her lifestyle habits so she will be happy and healthy again, because my mum is my rock without her I don't know where I would be right now.

I don't know how to handle the fact that my mum is now mildly depressed.

10 Things You Don't Know About Me

 

1.  I am a gaming geek at heart - I love gaming, if I could I would seriously play a game non-stop for a day if I didn't have to sleep and eat. They are addictive and so much fun compared to my boring relality.
2. I am a magazine horder - Only my close friends know this when they come into my room and see my stack of magazines that I have. They are always like "Why so many?" and all I say is "Why not?". I remember my mum telling me to get rid of them when I was younger and that's when it dawned on me if I love them so much why not work for one, and hopefully I will achieve that dream.
3. I have no social life - My social life now consists of me talking to my flat mates (while watching TV) and talking to my work mates and uni friends. That is all. I never go out and explore anymore because of my busy schedule, which makes me question when did I become such a nana?
4. I am a chocoholic - Yes I said it, I have such bad cravings for it when trying to stick to my 80% healthy 20% indulgent. I swear chocolate breaks me everytime!
5. I am really bad at keeping in touch with friends - Since moving up to Auckland I feel like I have neglected all of my amazing friends in the South Island, and I hate myself for it so it's time to change.
6. I am really bad at saving - I use to be the queen of saving when I was younger, WHAT HAPPENED!
7. I love star gazing - If I was smart enough I would have been an astronaut. I love anything and everything to do with stars, constellations, planets, in general just the whole solar system.
8. I am not a very confidant person - I doubt myself all the time and always think the worse. 
9. I love running - When I first started my healthy spree I never would have thought that I would enjoy it, and now I love running! If I don't run at least 3 times a week I don't feel like myself, I feel miserable. Thanks to me loving this it has made me loose over 6kgs.
10. I have never been in love.